Tuesday, 20 December 2011
it's not normal to sit on your couch, pout about your life, have your husband and children do all kinds of chores and pay your way, meanwhile complaining that you have to make their lunches. Even if you were perfectly organized and helpful, do you actually think all the materials would make you happy! All I'm saying is, what is really your problem? people, lack of fortune, opportunity, emotional stress and honestly, solve it! I never seem to measure up to people like that, and I'm starting to see, It's just not me.
Monday, 19 December 2011
Song of Soloman 8:10
"I was a wall, and my breasts were like towers; Then I became in his eyes as one who finds peace
Saturday, 17 December 2011
My branch
My branch...
is like a long piece of rhubarb covered in white
glossing like the moist waters of Lebanon
is like a long piece of rhubarb covered in white
glossing like the moist waters of Lebanon
Thursday, 15 December 2011
A Husband Redeemer
you licked my heart about a month ago, maybe three weeks
you took pleasure, delight in its savory taste
you did that and a minute later
looked in my eyes and asked
'is that ok'?
as long as your body is mine alone
I replied
you took pleasure, delight in its savory taste
you did that and a minute later
looked in my eyes and asked
'is that ok'?
as long as your body is mine alone
I replied
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
The heart...
It is a treasure and a hope
Many do not know much about the heart
We study the body and the emotions
But seldom the heart and its abrasions
It is a yay or a nay
It is a place to find truth and peace
when the world sits on our backs
rebuking our beasts.
It is my place of refuge
what i refer to when i'm lost
I sit back in the chair of its quarters
asking for its insights
I treat it as a piece of my body
That brings nourishment and comfort
It understands my folly
reminding me it's ok
In my own special way
It tests the waters of pain and
assures me when i'm ready for another day
The heart is not just a mark of
deception, loss and vain
It is a treasure and a hope
Many do not know much about the heart
We study the body and the emotions
But seldom the heart and its abrasions
It is a yay or a nay
It is a place to find truth and peace
when the world sits on our backs
rebuking our beasts.
It is my place of refuge
what i refer to when i'm lost
I sit back in the chair of its quarters
asking for its insights
I treat it as a piece of my body
That brings nourishment and comfort
It understands my folly
reminding me it's ok
In my own special way
It tests the waters of pain and
assures me when i'm ready for another day
The heart is not just a mark of
deception, loss and vain
Tuesday, 13 December 2011
Monday, 12 December 2011
The last breath
I never knew that it would last like this
I never saw it coming like that
He left me in a breeze and I thought he can go, he can pass by me
Why should I wait?
Why should I slumber with such a scavenger
He was coasting with the nines of thousands
he didn't wait for my call
But his voice beckoned me like a roaring sea
I didn't even have anyone, no one to be found
I had left my lover 6 months past, no more to be found
But the Lord's raging sea took my life
His breath that gave me song
He bled me in the desert storm
and I don't know why
Why Lord why have you forsaken me
I did as you told, I said it out loud
Then he sent the seas a thousand fold to bring me to call
I cried in tears I have sinned
I wanted the world when I could have had you
But I didn't understand back then
I longed for his touch, the smell of his cheek, the calm of his voice and the stare of his love
He is my shining armour, my noon star, he is my breath, the very breath I breathe
The breathe that ignites life in me
When I am weak, he literally picks me up out of my darkness and calls me to his feet
His presence delights in me and calls me blessed
How could I love a man like he like this oh God I cried?
How can a young woman stay this strong and yet know all is fine
Great is my reward, for I never stared in a young man's mind
But the moment I believed
I see what ther Lord meant
Though I did not realize my mistake, I was blinded, but led
I thought I deserved his touch but the Lord said no
I did not know why, I could not fathom his call
But I have given up a man I loved oh God, I thought this was everything I loved for
In this I would follow your Word oh God
But then I really lost my life, I lost my hope, I lost my spot
I still don't understand, I think it is lame
But I did it because it gave me a reason to live
To hold onto a last breath which is better than death
Now behave yourself. You do NOT want to see me lose it.
Ready to go!
Sunday, 11 December 2011
Thursday, 8 December 2011
I could fall in love with anyone, in any moment - his touch ,smell ,sight makes me feel in love, anywhere, anytime; but there's a touch of one soul that makes you realize love has really been found! It's a deep connection; it manifests itself in a longing to fellowship and brings a completeness and wholeness to the hearts of the two lovers. I could have met so many men before his time, but instead he came first among a handful of them, to show me the true essence of pure love; but I don't yet know what this love means to me. I don't know enough of the person he is and or what I am to him.
Saturday, 3 December 2011
On Love at first sight
Love can change you heart, so all your tears subside under a feeling of relief. In that moment, you let go of all regrets, because what matters is what's fueling your heart, what's standing in front of you. when parents don't show, but all you're headed to is a life in the rearview of a girl and her life - don't fret, because the canvas is newly being prescribed, from shadows to meadows. Faces can show feelings, unguarded by the movement of disguise in such times, to reveal true likenesses and even a distance from inside. She stands with a meagre hope of what she can not know, already disfigured by the calmness in her voice. She possesses not the ecstatic aweness of virgin expectation, but a carefree jubillation of celebration, staring into space by her imagination. But beyond all this, love flourished from an inner knowing, a mysterious count of the heart, that knows its found the person for whom it first fell. It must stand strong though until its surety is proved that is can bound all odds and send for the vikings in its place!
Love sarah, on this December 3, 2011.
Love sarah, on this December 3, 2011.
Friday, 2 December 2011
Tuesday, 29 November 2011
Tuesday, 22 November 2011
life is about respect others and yourself, it's not about following the rules. imagine if you were left out of everything and everyone's else's business, and imagine how you would handle it. imagine if you were left on your own with no one to turn to and then tell me if you would not stand up for yourself. yes, i think it's cruel.
Sunday, 20 November 2011
I am i am not...
Im not a life to lose im a life to gain
im not a bitch i stand up for whats right
im not a cheat i dont take shit for nothing
and im not going to sit on my ass watching my husband beat the crap out of me
Im not a puppet im a person
I don take no for answer
Ill do anything to get what i want
I have needs same way men do
Im not the only sinner around
even though women get blamed more for sin when men encourage it
im not a woman you use
dont even try to abuse me
im a woman of heart and soul
and i love the heart most of all
i love to open up my feelings and reach out and grab yours
If i hear you dumbing down my cause ill throw a hissy fit.
Im not a life to lose im a life to gain
im not a bitch i stand up for whats right
im not a cheat i dont take shit for nothing
and im not going to sit on my ass watching my husband beat the crap out of me
Im not a puppet im a person
I don take no for answer
Ill do anything to get what i want
I have needs same way men do
Im not the only sinner around
even though women get blamed more for sin when men encourage it
im not a woman you use
dont even try to abuse me
im a woman of heart and soul
and i love the heart most of all
i love to open up my feelings and reach out and grab yours
If i hear you dumbing down my cause ill throw a hissy fit.
A Note to Ponder
I went through a LOTTTTTT of pain tonight, and so i'm not surprised if this is a very painful experience for us all, and it's going to have to worth it in the end. You can't separate what God brought together, and think about how hell broke loose even when love found me. Love is not a game, but its only so for those truly in love. - Sarah.
Song of Love!
where can i go from your spirit? where can i flee from your presenceeeeee? if i ascend into heaven you are there? make my bed in the depths, you are therereeeee. if i rise on the wings of the dawn, settle on the far of the sea, evennnn there, your hand will guide meeeee! muah!
Thursday, 17 November 2011
Dear Journal,
I never knew I could be so in need
I never knew this moment until it was clear
My cord had been cut, my life had been new
A life between me and you
For years I had lived with a promise in hand
An avenue of devotion none could take
I said to myself, this I will keep
This is my most precious friend
I will never let it go, I will not
But then promises become stagnant
Like dust in the wind
Don't ask me why, or how and when
Life takes its course and brings to end
All that we once held dear
Because the joy neglected
The sorrow brought to naught
The laughter clearing in the distant
From far off lands
So love blossomed in season
And grand blew forth its great horn
To succumb of the season
In which to joy
Be not unwise in your own eyes
Be not sequestered to your own plan
This I have learned in time will bud
A flower meant for peace and glory and power
Thee have been hiding in your grave
Until love turned its course
And buds began to grow
Like a lily meadow
I don't even ask why thither ye came
I don't care for here you came
With every touch he brings a bud
As solemn as a baby's gasp
When their mother gives milk
And passes by the years of rain
Joy comes in season is more value
Than the right of devotion at once
My Love.
I never knew I could be so in need
I never knew this moment until it was clear
My cord had been cut, my life had been new
A life between me and you
For years I had lived with a promise in hand
An avenue of devotion none could take
I said to myself, this I will keep
This is my most precious friend
I will never let it go, I will not
But then promises become stagnant
Like dust in the wind
Don't ask me why, or how and when
Life takes its course and brings to end
All that we once held dear
Because the joy neglected
The sorrow brought to naught
The laughter clearing in the distant
From far off lands
So love blossomed in season
And grand blew forth its great horn
To succumb of the season
In which to joy
Be not unwise in your own eyes
Be not sequestered to your own plan
This I have learned in time will bud
A flower meant for peace and glory and power
Thee have been hiding in your grave
Until love turned its course
And buds began to grow
Like a lily meadow
I don't even ask why thither ye came
I don't care for here you came
With every touch he brings a bud
As solemn as a baby's gasp
When their mother gives milk
And passes by the years of rain
Joy comes in season is more value
Than the right of devotion at once
My Love.
Friday, 11 November 2011
Thursday, 10 November 2011
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Monday, 31 October 2011
Heart!
Look here darling, my hands are open wide
I can see the tenderness of your love, your soul
I feel the aroma of your presence near oh my soul
It touches like perfume in my glossy heart,
It looks like a string of ointment that moves in as it goes out as a unit
The strings are interwoven like the needlework of yarn
Within it is like a gentle wind blowing but not one to mourn
But one that adds to its fabric of moisture that savours you and i
Darkness is all around it, except for its reddish tone
And none can touch it even in the darkness shone
What is so weird and unbecoming
Is the darkness has a calming effect
For none can see us or touch us in this sac
This place they call heart
Like in a far away place in space
This is how I see us
Every time I gasp for air
When the storm rushes in
And you are not there
See me there panting
Asking for your glance
For in your midst
I am at heart again
I can see the tenderness of your love, your soul
I feel the aroma of your presence near oh my soul
It touches like perfume in my glossy heart,
It looks like a string of ointment that moves in as it goes out as a unit
The strings are interwoven like the needlework of yarn
Within it is like a gentle wind blowing but not one to mourn
But one that adds to its fabric of moisture that savours you and i
Darkness is all around it, except for its reddish tone
And none can touch it even in the darkness shone
What is so weird and unbecoming
Is the darkness has a calming effect
For none can see us or touch us in this sac
This place they call heart
Like in a far away place in space
This is how I see us
Every time I gasp for air
When the storm rushes in
And you are not there
See me there panting
Asking for your glance
For in your midst
I am at heart again
Sunday, 30 October 2011
As The Morning Dew, a poem
I woke up one day and I saw your eyes
they were as lovely and fashionable as the morning skies
Ones that bask in the sun after the morning dew
Others that beat the drum of a sky as blue
I need you, I said, I need you near
... In a time so dark, in a time so few
Have known what it's like to see you there,
Looking down from the skies
On a pedal of grey
I asked thou oh fair Priya Devalia, my pedals need your rain
I need you come hither and gather again
Come give me a taste of the thirst that remains
And you came upon me as the morning dew.
"As the Morning Dew," SarahS.
they were as lovely and fashionable as the morning skies
Ones that bask in the sun after the morning dew
Others that beat the drum of a sky as blue
I need you, I said, I need you near
... In a time so dark, in a time so few
Have known what it's like to see you there,
Looking down from the skies
On a pedal of grey
I asked thou oh fair Priya Devalia, my pedals need your rain
I need you come hither and gather again
Come give me a taste of the thirst that remains
And you came upon me as the morning dew.
"As the Morning Dew," SarahS.
Saturday, 29 October 2011
Fav scripture: Romans 14 (this has helped me a lot in making life decisions)
2,3"One man's faith allows him to eat everything, but another man whose faith is weak eats only vegetables. The man who eats everything must not look down on him who does eat..."
In other words this verse says we are not to condemn those who do not have levels of faith thought of as appropriate Christianity, and yet we criticize people's actions of little/more faith.
14"I am fully convinced that no food is unclean in itself. But if anyone regards something as unclean, then for him it is unclean"
this is why I believe it is possible to be in an evil world and still be able to do some good and possibly do more good than what others can do in a situation; Back in Bible days it was unclean to eat "pork" but even today we say it is wrong to do certain acts of indulgence, mainly sexual acts, anger...etc. To what extent are these acts a cultural phenomenon like pork eating instead of God's command to disindulge?
20"Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food. All food is clean, but it is wrong for a man to eat anything that causes something else to stumble"
This is saying that any act (back in the day food eating - can you imagine that pork made someone stumble??? haha) can cause someone else to fall into sin, and we are to help those people by not indulging in something when we actually know it's not a bid deal.
23"but the man who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin"
This shows it's important to not eat, if you lack faith, because that is sin. This goes back to scriptures on not making oaths (b/c you don't have enough faith to carry them out), and the only way to please God is in faith.
In other words this verse says we are not to condemn those who do not have levels of faith thought of as appropriate Christianity, and yet we criticize people's actions of little/more faith.
14"I am fully convinced that no food is unclean in itself. But if anyone regards something as unclean, then for him it is unclean"
this is why I believe it is possible to be in an evil world and still be able to do some good and possibly do more good than what others can do in a situation; Back in Bible days it was unclean to eat "pork" but even today we say it is wrong to do certain acts of indulgence, mainly sexual acts, anger...etc. To what extent are these acts a cultural phenomenon like pork eating instead of God's command to disindulge?
20"Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food. All food is clean, but it is wrong for a man to eat anything that causes something else to stumble"
This is saying that any act (back in the day food eating - can you imagine that pork made someone stumble??? haha) can cause someone else to fall into sin, and we are to help those people by not indulging in something when we actually know it's not a bid deal.
23"but the man who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin"
This shows it's important to not eat, if you lack faith, because that is sin. This goes back to scriptures on not making oaths (b/c you don't have enough faith to carry them out), and the only way to please God is in faith.
Friday, 28 October 2011
Romans 11:32 I will explain what I think this means.
For God has bound all men over to disobedience so that he may have mercy on them.
I look at this scripture and do not use it for my own gain. I do not say, I will go and sin then, but I know there is no condemnation on me if I sin b/c I know God redeem us when we sin. So it is not intentional to sin, but God saves those that call to him; and in fact that is a necessary condition, requirement of salvation, to depend on God, rely on God in a time of need! In conclusion, He doesn't want us to do it on our own, to think we can rely on ourselves, but rely on Him, which I think is appropriate to expect from his creation, ones he's moulding into His image.
I look at this scripture and do not use it for my own gain. I do not say, I will go and sin then, but I know there is no condemnation on me if I sin b/c I know God redeem us when we sin. So it is not intentional to sin, but God saves those that call to him; and in fact that is a necessary condition, requirement of salvation, to depend on God, rely on God in a time of need! In conclusion, He doesn't want us to do it on our own, to think we can rely on ourselves, but rely on Him, which I think is appropriate to expect from his creation, ones he's moulding into His image.
Giving it up
Do you think these days, that people care about who they're hurting?
Do we stop to glance at another person's misfortune.
I am working with all these young children that have come from broken homes
and broken families, never knowing if they will stay or go...
How it breaks a hear to know their parents don't want them
Their friends desert them...
In more ways then one I know what that feels like
So I wonder if anyone feels the same
How much it pains the soul to know the ones they truly love
Desert them in the end?
Maybe I'm just more naturally inclined to love people more
this way
But I want you to know God always provides a way.
Do we stop to glance at another person's misfortune.
I am working with all these young children that have come from broken homes
and broken families, never knowing if they will stay or go...
How it breaks a hear to know their parents don't want them
Their friends desert them...
In more ways then one I know what that feels like
So I wonder if anyone feels the same
How much it pains the soul to know the ones they truly love
Desert them in the end?
Maybe I'm just more naturally inclined to love people more
this way
But I want you to know God always provides a way.
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