The last breath

I never knew that it would last like this
I never saw it coming like that
He left me in a breeze and I thought he can go, he can pass by me
Why should I wait?
Why should I slumber with such a scavenger
He was coasting with the nines of thousands
he didn't wait for my call
But his voice beckoned me like a roaring sea
I didn't even have anyone, no one to be found
I had left my lover 6 months past, no more to be found
But the Lord's raging sea took my life
His breath that gave me song
He bled me in the desert storm
and I don't know why
Why Lord why have you forsaken me
I did as you told, I said it out loud
Then he sent the seas a thousand fold to bring me to call
I cried in tears I have sinned
I wanted the world when I could have had you
But I didn't understand back then
I longed for his touch, the smell of his cheek, the calm of his voice and the stare of his love
He is my shining armour, my noon star, he is my breath, the very breath I breathe
The breathe that ignites life in me
When I am weak, he literally picks me up out of my darkness and calls me to his feet
His presence delights in me and calls me blessed
How could I love a man like he like this oh God I cried?
How can a young woman stay this strong and yet know all is fine
Great is my reward, for I never stared in a young man's mind
But the moment I believed
I see what ther Lord meant
Though I did not realize my mistake, I was blinded, but led
I thought I deserved his touch but the Lord said no
I did not know why, I could not fathom his call
But I have given up a man I loved oh God, I thought this was everything I loved for
In this I would follow your Word oh God
But then I really lost my life, I lost my hope, I lost my spot
I still don't understand, I think it is lame
But I did it because it gave me a reason to live
To hold onto a last breath which is better than death